The glimpse of blue sky was nice

But back into my hole I go! To study for the nclex that is. I figured out why I wasn't afraid of that test. A little thing called DENIAL. Yeah. Scared am I! I have a month to get ready. I also have wonderful parents and ex-laws to help me with the kiddo so I can study. AND! I had a fabulous weekend with my sister ex law/bff, Julie to tide me over for the next month when I must only look up from studying to try and learn to actually be a nurse! They recommend 3-4 hrs of study PER NIGHT. sigh.

Did I mention how much I love my sis-ex-law? Cause I do! It is so wrong we don't live in the same town. I mean really- something needs done about that. We have made plans to meet in KC every few months since I go there all the time and she can fly in for free! I am WAY excited about that!! I kinda didn't realize how much I've missed just some of the fun things in life- movies/tv, shopping, not spending every waking minute just trying to keep my head above water.... I feel like I got a glimpse of life on the other side of nursing school and the nclex and not being worried that I'll kill someone the second they let me loose on the floor. And that glimpse was glorious! ha! ok- little dramatic tonight. I am looking forward however to this summer when hopefully things are much more settled down!

Speaking of drama- my New Year started very dramatically indeed! It seems to follow me these days. About 11pm New Years Eve, I got a text....from...drumroll please... Adam's (now ex) girlfriend. Ok, kinda gave away the ending of the story there. Apparently they are broken up. And she was NOT happy about the conversation leading up to said break up. And she felt the need to express said unhappiness to me for some reason.... in a string of 17 texts over the course of an hour- stopping right at 12:05 am New Year's Day. Happy New Year to me right? I stopped responding after the second text in which I politely gave her all the reasons I didn't really want to hear from her and then asked what it was she wanted from me. Apparently, that was not the right thing to say. I don't understand why but it was almost like she needed some sort of approval from me .... or something. I have no idea. It got so crazy that my brother even asked her to leave me alone! AND after both of those requests, she still copied me and Brad an im conversation between her and Adam. Cause that was what I really wanted to read. Geez-a-lou. Strangely enough, I had begun praying a few days before that God would enable me to forgive her and stop the ...strong dislike. And while I definitely don't hate her anymore... I won't lie. I do hope she remains out of the picture. I didn't like her being around Anna AT ALL. No I did not. We shall see. I told Adam that I await his next move with great interest. ;)

Well, I suppose I should return to my small practice quiz of 563 questions on the cardiac, respiratory, and renal systems. Happy New Years everybody!